Why I Love The Moon

    
    Recently, I have been taking a free class through NAMI (National Alliance for Mental Illness), and it is called Peer to Peer. So far I have been through two classes, and that has all I have needed to decide that I want to be an advocate and a public speaker for mental illness. I love the atmosphere so much, it empowers me to be around people my age, with brain illnesses just like mine, who have been through similar experiences. No one will ever know the power and feeling of ease that I felt tonight. I wish that they could. Because to explain something like that, is nearly impossible. Still, I try to explain these things for the benefit of others. I used to think that I had no future, nothing bright to look to. I suppose that's why I am so infatuated by the moon. Because it is bright, it is filled with wonder and possibility, and it is in the sky every night without fail. Something that I can always look to, no matter how dark my world may get. However, I am starting to find my own light. Something that gives me purpose, something that gives me something to look forward to. I used to think I was given this disease out of spite. But now I know, I was given this condition because God knew that I would recover, that I would see everything I've been through in the past year, and see it as an opportunity. This is my time to learn as much as I can learn. This is my time to prepare to educate the minds of others. Minds both young and old. The importance of talking about this issue is dire. And God knew that I could come through and educate as many minds as possible. I signed up tonight to speak at both schools, and large groups of adults. And one day I will be teaching the same class I am taking now. My whole life I have known that I have wanted to save lives, and telling my story, that is how I will save lives. I will raise and spread awareness, and help end the ongoing stigma. God knew; he knew that I was strong enough to live this life, and I feel so blessed that he chose me. I feel so blessed to be living this life.